"And now i'm back, from Outer Space..."

Wow...it's been almost a year since my last blog...can't believe how quickly it's gone over! Of course, the last 12 months haven't been easy, I was one of the 'lucky ones'...lucky to stay in my Job, while people who I'd met and had a lot of respect for (and still do) are no longer with us. I will be honest though, it does feel like a 'stay of execution' rather than a new direction...don't get me wrong, i work hard and push myself with what i do, but then again...doesn't everyone?

That said...I'm going to be selfish and say, that I'm not doing what i should be doing. i do what i do, because...because I can...Music, Web, Video...it's all the same to me! That may come over as being arrogant and is not intended to be, but I am a perfectionist, which means I want to do better and better each time, but the negative is that I lose interest very quickly, in what I've done before....where is the challenge in repeating yourself?

Yes, this is referring to work, but I find myself standing back and thinking..."why put so much effort in?" I have always done this, with previous companies...and usually get taken advantage of...i recognise that and can sniff people a mile off who do this...but maybe this post is more philosophical, more heart led and more positive in some ways...Though I realise that I'm not doing what I should be doing! Yes, Bills have to be paid etc and it's a fine line i'm on...as the Film say's...maybe this "is good as it get's"...I like to think it isn't.

You get one chance at this challenging, exciting...and at times...dull life. i need to pursue what i set out to do...i got side lined...time to get on track :)

Sorry for the rant or outpouring of honesty...going to get my Blog back on and deal with my journey with Technology both past and present...and hopefully you won't mind my honesty at times...stay with me ;)

J